I see a young girl in church, she’s born again, she believes in Christ as her Lord and Savior, most days she’s happy but some days she is sad and tormented. On those low days, sadly the biggest tormentor is herself. She heavily critics herself and thinks she is not worthy of love,happiness and acceptance.
These are the days she lives in the pain and bitterness of her past. A past she can’t go back and change, a past that she had little influence over, but still a past she carries heavily a burden in her heart and it weighs her down.
Yes they hurt her physically, traumatized her psychologically and scarred her emotionally but she hasn’t let go of them. She still lives in that prison reliving the heart breaking memories. It’s like it happens every time she closes her eyes. In a blink of an eye and she’s back to feeling helpless and tortured..all over again.
She can’t open up to anyone because she’s perfected the art of masking her pain in a facade that blinds people from the war raging within. She thinks she’s not beautiful, that they won’t understand her pain, that other girls are more prettier with more amazing personalities than her, the confident girls all the boys run to..not broken girls like herself.
Oh little precious one, when will you accept that you’re loved by the most high God and in His eyes, you’re a jewel, a priceless one. A treasure that He gladly put down His life for so He could hang on the cross, like a cursed man, yet blameless just to save you. And Yes He would do it all over again to save you. Because nothing in this world matters more than you. That nothing can separate you from His love. That in His eyes you’re perfect,wonderfully made and by His sanctification, He’s cleansing you and making you holy and blameless because His precious blood makes you white as snow and speaks life over every dry bone in your life.
Yes He sees the scars in your heart and He is ever so willing to heal you if you would only let go of the tight grip you’re holding onto the pain. He wants to step in and ease the burden but you need to step aside and let Him do what He does best; redeem,restore,reconcile. He’s knocking so gently on the door of your heart. He sees the tears you cry every night and it breaks His heart because He’s totally in love with you and wants to wipe away every little tear you’ve shed.
Baby girl just admit it,you can’t do it on your own. You’ve tried to heal the pain your way, you’ve looked for men to soothe the pain but they leave you more broken and hurting. You’ve opened up to your friends but they’ve stabbed your back and laughed in your face, judging the battle you face and despising the scars you bear.
You need Jesus. He’s the only way, the truth and the life. In Him you’ll find all you need and immeasurably more than all you ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within you. His yoke is easy, His burden is light and His arms are wide open waiting for His precious princess to go back home.
And once He’s done bestowing on you a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair, you will be called an oak of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor.
In their eyes they think you’re doomed, in your eyes you think you’re the epic failure, but in His eyes, He sees His precious beloved heartbeat. Trust Him and the process, He’ll make your scars beautiful.
Heavenly father, thank you for your love and the great sacrifice you gave to redeem me. I trust my pain with you and step aside for you to work out all things for good. Thank you that in Your eyes, I am loved, forgiven, accepted, healed, restored and beautiful. Help me every day to look up to you for my worth in Jesus name, Amen!